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[kadrin]

Just cried for half an hour - full on crazy howling word-fragments crying - and I don't feel purged and renewed, I feel depressed and just as sad about all the same things, and still very volatile, but like I might be done crying. Might. Temporarily. Stupid New Agey poetic types. Your vague aphorisms incorrectly described my personal experience.

Also, while I know they're the first two posts in months, don't link this one to the last one; the Lego Movie is made of brilliant antitears and does not cause fits of absolute despair. Post hoc sed non proctor hoc.

(EDIT: Propter. I WAS SAD AND SLEEPY.)

Comments

[rissicat]

((HUG)) I hope that you can climb out of this soon.

And yes, G-cat and I liked the Lego Movie, too...

[thebaconfat]

I think one of the worst parts about crazy word-fragments crying, for me at least, is that even while I am doing it there is always a small part of me that thinks I am being ridiculous and is embarrassed to be here. The horror, despair, and hopelessness aren't bad enough on their own, let's throw in self-loathing, distain, and shame on top of it, why not.

I loved the LEGO movie too!! And I'm really sorry things are bad right now. I think you're fantastic and smart and talented and funny and really, really strong to stick through this, and the things your brain are saying to you are bullshit. Let me know if I can help.

[soranokumo]

Gah, been meaning to come back to this and throw in my support along with Rissi and Baco's.

((HUUUUUUUUUUUUUGS))

Insofar as it is possible with existing on the other side of the planet, please know that we've got your back, even--especially--when the brain is talking bullshit to you.